8.30.2012

Logic

    You can change your mind, but you can't change your destiny. I just heard that on the radio, and I don't know if I agree with that. If that's true then why are those of us who get sick and tired of being sick and tired able to, with help, get away from our addictions. The flux in my recovery right  now is switching my old way of thinking for a new and positive point of view. I try to eliminate emotion from my outlook and see things only from a point of logic. This could be dangerous, I might be just trying to substitute logic for alcohol and avoid emotion. I hate the way I felt last night as I lay in my room, but something in me told me that I had to go through it. In order to get to  the other side of healing.
  So I go through two bitch moves today, One from a musician I'm supposed to be working with, another from a female I thought was in my corner. Neither of them had the balls to tell me that they had other projects going on that would demand their attention. Now that kind of omission of information is paramount to lying, and it pisses me off. Logic says that I should just try to understand where they are coming from, and realize that they may not be mature enough to be direct. I'm still pissed...WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO SAY- You punk ass chumps